Tuesday, December 15, 2009
To be honest I haven't been doing to well. I have cut back greatly but haven't "kicked" the habit completely. I have been having 2 or 3 cigarettes a day. It has worked well because it is just enough to take the edge off. The part that is making this the hardest is my husband is still smoking. Every so often he will forget and light up in the house and it totally screws me up. It isn't all his fault tho...it just takes so much will power and I just don't have it right now...not with Christmas coming and getting ready for it. I know, I know, just another excuse not to totally stop and to be honest maybe it is but it is just so hard!! My hubby says that since he has the week during Christmas and New Years off it will be a good time for him to quit too....we'll see. I believe it will be easier for him then me, but I am the one who has no choice but to quit. Last Monday I finally asked the doctor for a chest Xray because my chest hurt so bad and I thought at one point I was having a heart attack but come to find out when your lungs are inflamed they can spasm and make your chest hurt. The good news is that the chest xray showed nothing out of the norm and the doctor is thinking that I either have a nasty virus that just doesn't want to leave me or I am in the beginning stages of a chronic lung disease...great!!!! They put me on antibiotics AGAIN and also 2 types of inhalers which seems to be working. This is not fun and pretty scary too. To think that I am only 33 and starting a lung disease already is really scary.
Now to why I haven't just stopped? I have no idea!!!! I wish I could answer that. I know it is bad. I know every time I smoke a cigarette it is making my lungs worse and I am slowly killing myself....still no answer. I have read that stopping smoking is harder then quitting street drugs....if that is true I am not sure. I know what you are thinking, if your not a smoker, "dumbass". Come on admit it you think that I am stupid and should have gotten rid of all of the smokes when the dr told me what was going on...and you are totally right!!! If you are a smoker or an ex smoker then you probably totally understand what I am saying. This is the hardest thing that I have done and I am praying for the strength to stop completely. I just wish I knew if there was a trick or something. This time around I have figured out it is not so much the nicotine that keeps me coming back, it is the habit. The habit is the worst to break. I try not to talk on the phone much because there is something about smoking and being on the phone...don't ask. The morning smoke isn't bad for me. I can get up and go a little bit without having that morning cigarette (unlike my hubby). The after you eat smoke is getting easier. Now after dinner I just go straight to washing the dishes and cleaning up the kitchen before I really want that after dinner smoke. I now have a bottle of water I carry with me all the time so when I want that smoke I just keep taking small sips. There is a down side to the bottle tho....way too much time spent in the bathroom..Hahaha! But it does take that edge away for a little bit and it gives my hands and mouth something to do...that is the key I believe, keeping things busy. I can't chew gum as it always gives me a headache so I have stuff to suck on which works only for a little bit, but it does help.
I am hoping that I can figure this out soon and be smoke free by the new year! For all of those people out there that have quit smoking cold turkey...I am on my hands and knees bowing to you for your strength and commitment and asking for your help on how to just give it up! I am open for suggestions of any kind. For all you non smokers out there I am willing to hear the nasty comments you may wish to say....as long as they are not so mean you make me want to smoke...hahaha!!
Hope you all are doing great out there and are ready for the holidays. I am on my way slowly but I am one of those people that wait til last minute anyways...guess I like the stress.
Have a wonderful and blessed day :)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
This is Emily at the end of the yr preschool picnic on the beach. The older kids were playing so nicely together and having fun on the beach, poor Emi couldn't keep up and just ended up falling asleep in the swing.
This picture below is just a shot a little further away so you can see her hanging there and she kept moving her head trying to get a more comfy spot.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Hello everyone! I know I have been gone for quite sometime now and to be honest I didn't know if I was ever going to come back to writing. I started blogging for my stores on Etsy and Artfire. I had eventually grown to not like blogging for the fact of I was bored talking about selling. I enjoyed it more when I would talk about what I liked and loved but then I said "who cares how you feel about certain things" I know some of you do....if my old blogging buddies are still out there. So I have decided to do this for myself. I need to vent the frustration of stopping smoking and I thought what a better place then here due to the fact of there are millions of you out there that have overcome some sort of an addiction. I hope you all will be able to give me some hints, ideas and encouragement to do this so then I may be able to help the next person in line to quit smoking or whatever their addiction may be.
I have been having some medical issues and to be honest I am getting really nervous now. I am the type of person that doesn't like to talk about very personal things. My thoughts are that somewhere out there someone has it worse then you. I didn't want people to think that I was whining or anything. I have decided to try writing about my issues going on and about quitting smoking. I thought that it may help me to just put my thoughts and feelings down and if anyone wants to read or if anyone can offer some advice I would love it so. I have heard that quitting street drugs is easier then quitting smoking...don't know if that is totally true or not but I can say it is the hardest thing I have had to do. I haven't figured out how to constantly find things for my fingers to do or my mouth for that fact. I have lost some weight (45 lbs to be exact..in 2 yrs) and I am soooo scared I am going to put it back on and I can't do that since I am already pre diabetic or I should say was pre diabetic:) If I have to put some of that back on I am good with that but I have seen and read horror stories on how much weight people put on due to stopping smoking and I am not good with that!
On another note. I thought I would show you a few pictures that I have been taking with my Christmas toy from last yr and a pictures of how big the boys have gotten :) I really would love to hear from you guys and let me know how you all are doing. I have popped in from time to time but I never really commented to much on the blogs but I always was wondering how everyone was.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Bob is currently living on a 40 acre farm in Wellington FL with a couple who really wanted to take him in. Tom told us Bob also has a girlfriend to hang out with!! How cool is that. Bob is now going to live out his life being happy and running but not for competition.
Also the best news of all.....Tom has had a "No Slaughter" Bill signed for Bob. This means that Bob will never have to see the inside of a slaughter house again. He made it out and will never go back. How lucky is this horse?! I think he is one of the luckiest animals out there. If it wasn't for Racefund.org finding him in the slaughter house and calling Tom, and for Tom taking him back in...and now knowing that he will die an old horse, happy and loved! He is one of the few that get a second chance at life, so please just remember all of those that aren't that lucky.
I hope to try to get some more pictures of Bob at his new home but no promises. We will still be in contact with Tom and hopefully when another partnership comes around we will be ready and be able to afford it. Even if another partnership doesn't come around we have made a good friend and I have had the honor of knowing someone who is a horse trainer and also a man who cares so much for his and all animals alike. You don't meet people like Tom everyday and I am glad that I have met him. He gave us a chance at one of my husbands dreams and I will always respect him for that! It was a great ride for Mark... and me too! It was a lot of fun and a time that we will never forget. I love you Tom! You are a nice, wonderful, warm hearted person and it has been an absolute pleasure to have gotten to know you! Thank you!!!
I am hoping to keep updated with other horses that Tom is running. You can always catch Toms horses at Calder race track in Miami FL. Just look for Mcschell Racing and Tom Schell!
Thanks for sharing in our adventure. It wasn't as long as we would have liked but it has turned out better then we ever thought it could.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
This is part of our beach overlooking Long Island Sound. As you can see we don't have much activity when it comes to waves. Long Island protects us and the only time it gets choppy and we have any types of waves is when a storm comes in. Not as nice as some beaches but it is nice since it is only 3 minutes from my house.
I couldn't really get good pics of the band concert. The place that they performed in was big. They all did a great job and it was very enjoyable. Most of them have been playing since they were in 4th grade and I can't believe how much they have grown in the last 4 yrs.
Monday, June 1, 2009
If you missed the shirt that Reese won for the best smile and to learn a little more about him you can go here to read more on this wonderful part of our family.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Just a little story for you.
My father who served in Vietnam for 16 months and came home safe had not to long ago took all of the grandchildren together and showed them all how to properly salute the uniform and flag. Now you would never think that it would stick in a 3 yr olds head. Well, I was wrong. We were in McDonald's just a few weeks ago and there were 2 men in uniform. They were in the Army. We were waiting in line behind them and my son turned to me and said "Mommy, what did Dziadziu (grandfather in Polish) say to do?" I had no idea what he was asking. He took his hand a put it up to his head all funny and then I caught on. So I gave him a fresher coarse. The 2 men were walking out and Thomas says "bye bye" and puts his hand up and saluted them. The older of the 2 turned around and saw him and went into a full salute himself! The younger of the 2 had a HUGE smile on his face and you could just see the joy in his eyes. Everyone in McDonald's that day that caught it started clapping and cheering. It was such a touching and wonderful moment. I really wish I had my camera for that one. But after seeing the mens faces, full of joy, I knew that it only took a small act to show these men that we appreciate them being out there doing what they are doing. It was also a very proud moment for me. My father always taught me to salute or at least say thank you. Now that I am older and have seen this war go on, I know how much they risk their lives for us and truly believe in what they are doing. Please just say thank you next time you see a man or woman in uniform. I guarantee it will make their day.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
He has also been knocking time off of each of his breezes, not a lot, but they still haven't had to push him to take time off. Imagine what will happen when they do push him....he is going to fly!!
I hope you all will join us for this great day and celebrate Bobs first run in about 2 yrs! I will let you all know if there are any changes. Keep your fingers crossed that the papers will come in in time and Bob will run on Saturday!
I have included this race for you all to see Bob Bull at his best. This is the race in which he won on November 25, 2007. If you watch closely you will see that the jockey barely pushes him to run. What I mean by "pushes" is, that he doesn't really use the whip on him. I think he used it 2 or 3 times. When it comes to horse racing, that is great! He is also very beautiful and runs his heart out. I hope you enjoy this glimpse at Bob in action and hope you all will send good vibes to our friends Tom of McSchell Racing, Lisa, his wife, our jockey, and of coarse Bob Bull! Good vibes, mojo, wishes or whatever you want to call it, is greatly appreciated!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Thursday, April 30, 2009
This is Reese playing with his grouchy sister, Sasha. As you can see she puts Reese in his place when needed and she will go after any dog that doesn't belong in our yard. Can we say Ornery. She is about 14 and we rescued her too. She was about to be put down when she was about 5 because her owner didn't want her anymore so we took her in. She is a typical female dog...no pun intended..LOL! She is an old girl set in her ways and has gotten bitchier the older she has gotten. We love her no less but she does need an attitude adjustment...LOL!!!